Hello friends, happy Sunday!
As I enter into my last week as an orientation mentor, I decided to take the time to sit down and share with you where my mindset has been lately. There has been a lot of newness for me this summer, and a lot of spontaneity. And I have been enjoying every second of it. One of my most pressing goals at the moment is to do more things that scare me.
Let’s back up a little bit. I have started to realize that for too long I have been held back by myself, by the fear of others opinions, the fear of change, and the fear of failure. This realization has motivated me to find the mindset of doing more things that scare me. I think this briefly started when I finally made the decision to change my major last fall. This change was followed by an immense amount of happiness, so I decided change might be good.
As some of you may know, I am working as an orientation mentor for my university this summer. This is not something I saw myself ever doing two years ago, and I surprised myself and much of my family when I decided to apply for the position. It was definitely a spur-of-the-moment, “I’m just gonna go for it” decision; I applied, interviewed, and was blessed with a position working for one of the most important institutions in my life, with people who have already changed it forever. So that was step one. Applying scared me, interviewing scared me, getting the job scared me, but I pushed through.
So the first week of training, a few new friends and I went exploring. We found ourselves walking through Fayetteville’s Funky Yardsale, a little gem I had yet to discover in this town of mine. I stumbled across this cute wooden sign that read, “Buy the ticket, take the ride.” I literally had to stop and take a photo, because it hit me hard. Three days into my new job and I found words that perfectly describe how I got here. Life is about experiences, and it is about time I branch out. As the month is wrapping up, I am realizing that this job has introduced me to so much more than terribly long days and a bi-weekly paycheck. It has introduced me to 54 new wonderful human beings, weekly spontaneous adventures, and an immense amount of happiness.
When I returned to Fayetteville after a week home at the beginning of this month, I made a huge realization. There is no place I’d rather be then on the porch swing in my backyard, my puppy in my lap, talking to my momma. Sometimes I feel that is where I am happiest. So why do I continue to leave? My home in Kansas City is where I am comfortable, but my home here is where I grow. The comfort zone is an easy place to get stuck in, but I have made it a priority to escape mine as much as possible.
The decision to apply for this job, though it may seem small to some, has been the best decision for myself. I hope to continue to take new adventures and try new things in this upcoming school year. Next time you find yourself contemplating whether or not you should try something, just do it. You will either love it, or you will learn from it.
Buy the ticket, take the ride